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In a few hours, I'll soon be leaving.(*sigh) I am going to miss home. I am gonna miss my noisy little sister and my sometimes annoying shoti,hehehe, playful cousins. I am also gonna miss my dad and mom and my evercaring grandma. But my mom is going with me (*smile).

There are so many things that I will surely miss. Uhh,My friends (*sigh).I miss my friends.

College........

It's friday already, may 29 2009.The last friday of May and I am doing my second blog. This is probably going to be short compared to my first blog.

Four days to go and off to cdo, where I will start my college life.A new chapter of my life.College life(woot).College,here I come. My emotions are mixed. I feel excited at the same time nervous, all sort of stuff that teenagers feel when they go to college.College life for me is hmm, a bigger arena in learning things, developing your skills, developing your spiritual life and social life.And if you want to land in a good job you need to have good college grades. That's why you have to do good in college. College also is where you'll meet new and different people with distinct likes and dislikes. Like professors, deans, new friends, etc.

I hope I'm going to survive college but I know I can :) .

[ the Scar ]

Nobody wants to experience pain in their lives. Me, I really wouldn’t one, but its inevitable for poeple not to experience pain.In all of the pain that I had experienced (most of it were minor pains), there is still one that is not healed.The pain of love.For me it is the greatest pain that I wouldn’t want, but unfortunately I am feeling it right now. The pain of love can be in any kind of relationship (friendship,family,couples, etc.) This is my first time to experience this kind of pain. It is a newly fresh cut in my heart, the cut that causes me pain. The pain that left me crying these past few nights. The pain that drew sadness to my face and breaks my heart into pieces. Whenever I think about it, it seems that my world starts to ruin in pieces. It brought me sorrow.

At least 2 days had passed since the cut. The pain is still here. I tried to look back and remember the days we were together, but it is just so hard. I can’t help but cry. The pain is still inside me, in my very soul and heart. You’re everything that I wanted but I have to let go.

But I am looking forward for the time to come when I am able to face you and say I have move on. It will probably take a long time for me to be fully healed. Indeed it takes time to heal a deeply cut wound, but eventhough it is already healed the scar still remains. It still leaves a mark.